Got time?

Ok - I knew I put this here for a reason. Im not sure when Ill have time to type things out but Im sure some of it must be coming.

Dexter had a good night last night. I had made the bad decision to up the amount of formula *and* feedings we were giving him on Tuesday and Wednesday and we paid for it dearly. His stomach seemed to be unhappy and he was screaming pretty much all day Wednesday and wouldnt be let down for anything. Also his reflux seems to have gotten pretty bad. Wednesday was not a good day and led to a worse night - up all night screaming and me having had no naps even for a few days needed SOME sleep so Jason had gotten up with him lots which stressed him out. Lets just say on Thursday morning I had resolved to go back to my somewhat normal routine of nursing all day and supplementing just 2oz of formula at a time starting at 6pm or so. He did much better all day though he was attached to me for the entire thing. I felt better not putting that formula in his body and then last night was actually great. Up till 1230 or so and then up again just twice after that and up for the morning at 630. The big improvement is the amount of fussiness that came with the waking. Eating is quicker and putting him back to sleep is better. He also had two bowel movements. He went from BMs in every diaper to NO BMs at all all day Wednesday. He had two at night though. Big change though IMO from the BF BMs that he has been having to the icky thick greenish ones that the boost in formula produced. I hope to get him back on schedule but still see him gain weight come Monday. We just need to figure out what works I guess. Also address the reflux and stomach issues. The doctor said not to change his formula and recommended all the stuff we had read about -- sitting him up after he eats and eating more frequently and in smaller amounts for the reflux. They also told us to get some Baby Lax and we did but we didnt use it since he had the 2 BMs last night. Today hes eaten just twice and nibbled another time. Its 11am and we arent back to the regular BMs but Im hopeful.

I focus so much on his eating and BMs. DH really pushes the bottle feeding and Im in tears just thinking about it. Its been really an emotional thing for me to give into the bottle and the more we do it the more unhappy Dex is and the more unhappy I am. I just really hope we can work this breastfeeding thing out.

Ok - Dex is stirring. Ill go find us both some food as I have yet to eat anything today and thats not good. Im still in the stage of when I get a free minute I have to choose from eating, sleeping, getting on here, showering, changing my clothes - something. I havent had any time away from him yet and I dont plan on it either. I just need a better schedule. Hes a month old this Sunday and it still feels like the first two weeks. I guess thats okay though - it doesnt always go the way the books tell you.

I should be back later today to update with feedings and any stresses I might run into.

2pm update:

Fed again twice since my post. Once was half heartedly though. Dex is actually fixing a fit right now so to make this quick I wanted to jot down his weights up till now.

5/10 8.3
5/12 7.7
5/13 7.12
5/25 8.7
6/4 8.11


Note to self: open new blog to rant about my mother; find more hours in the day